Larry gulped
loudly, his nails digging into the leather exterior of
his seat. Bono sat in the drivers seat, twirling
the wheel with one hand as he ranted into the cell phone
in his other hand.
Bono, will you ple-
I dont care what he says
no, I
dont give a damn. Look, Im supposed to be on
HOLIDAY
that means I have a break from the hotel
matters as well. No, none of us want to talk about it,
all four of us are on HO-LI-DAY
how the hell did you
get my number anyway? Bono turned sharply again and
Larry whimpered, clutching his stomach, Bono,
youre a bad enough driver WITHOUT the cell-
Who do you think you are? Bono snapped
angrily into the phone, stopping at a green light with a
jolt, cars honking loudly behind them, CALL MY
MANAGER. Yes! YES. Paul McGuiness. What? Number? Oh,
ehm
yeah, 293
22 - LARRY! Bono cried as
Larry snatched the cell phone out of his hand and threw
it out his open window.
WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
DRIVE, Larry said sternly, pointing at the
road in front of them.
Bonos face filled with disbelief of what Larry had
just done, but he sighed and continued to drive without a
word. Larry nodded, satisfied, and leaned back in his
seat.
So how far is it to this rented house?
Larry asked, finally breaking the silence.
About two and a half hours from here. Ali, Edge and
Morleigh are already there. I talked to them this
morning
we should get there around 9:30 I
think.
Larry nodded again and Bono glanced at him, You
want radio?
Larry shook his head and leaned it against the window,
pointing toward the horizon, Nice sunset.
Yeah
you should like this trip
its
a scenic route.
Meaning?
Meaning long, stretching practically abandoned
road.
Larry smiled, That sounds nice
Ive spent
a whole year in this city
That makes one of us, Bono muttered and Larry
shrugged coldly, Sorry Im so
boring
No, youre not, thats not what I
meant
sorry I made it sound like that.
Its okay
I can be boring, I know.
Nah
So when was the last time you saw
Ann?
Very nice sunset, Larry said again and
Bono glanced at him, Hello? Earth to
Lawrence?
Bono, dont make me talk about it
I mean, youre gone for two and a half years
on tour, then move to New York for a year and she
cant make it just this once to be with you?
Bono said.
I told you, she had to work.
Shes been working a lot lately
Larry sighed,
I know.
Hey, at least your house doesnt run
better without you in it, Bono said unhappily,
tapping his fingers on the wheel.
Its 1995
Ive been with Ann almost
as long as Ive been with U2
it feels like
something between me and her has changed.
Have you ever asked her why she wont
marry you yet?
No, Larry sighed, putting his chin in his
hand, And now she doesnt want kids
either
she used to love kids
Bono looked at Larry a moment without saying anything. He
looked as unhappy as Bono felt. Bono had been looking
forward to spending time alone with Ali, but now he
almost dreaded it. Not only were he and Ali at each
others throat a bit lately, but also hed feel
guilty enjoying himself with Larry sitting miserable in
the same house. He predicted hed be sitting up late
with Larry, both of them drinking away their troubles and
Ali mad at him. He slowed the car down. The longer it
took to get there the better.
Anyway, is Adam still coming up tomorrow?
Suppose to.
Hes not bringing Naomi, is he?
No, Bono frowned, I think theyre
pretty much a done deal.
Larry simply nodded, deciding it best to keep quiet on
the subject of Adam and Naomi. Larry knew Bono liked
Naomi, but Larry had never really liked her all that
much.
Bono looked out the side window, toward the sky,
Getting dark quick.
Look at those thunderheads over there, Larry
pointed to Bonos left and Bono made a face,
Right in our way
WONDERFUL. Better make our
arrival time 10:30.
Ah, well
Larry reclined his seat and
closed his eyes, Wake me up when we get
there.
Larrys eyes shot open as he felt cold rain hit his
face and the chilly wind whip his hair. He was facing the
drivers seat, but Bono wasnt in it. The
drivers door was open and it was pouring buckets
outside. Larry sat up, completely confused.
BONO? What the fuck
BONO?
Yeah, yeah, Bono muttered, soaking wet as he
sat down in the drivers seat, shutting the door
behind him, Im here
God, is it
raining
makes you feel almost at home.
Why did you go out there? Why are we stopped?
Larry looked at the radio and gasped, And why is it
after midnight and were not there yet?
Okay, first off, it was raining, so thats one
delay, two, we have a flat tire on a stranded road with
no cell phone, thanks to you
hence, us not being
there
I dont think were gonna be able to
get there tonight. We can walk to help, but not in this
rain and dark.
Oh, shit
Larry sighed unhappily.
Yeah, and wed be out of here by now if you
hadnt decided to see if my cell phone had wings. I
could have called for help! But we have no spare tire
and
Jesus, they are going to be worried sick about
us, Bono mumbled unhappily, rubbing his eyes and
running a hand through his dripping hair.
Im sorry, Larry said guiltily and Bono
shook his head, pulling off his jacket, Its
not your fault
well, it is, but nothing bad can
happen of this
except us getting back aches from
sleeping in the car. And you didnt know the tire
was gonna blow.
The two were silent a moment, both staring out the
windshield as the rain pounded down on it. Bono finally
moved, throwing his jacket in the back seat.
At least this car is spacious
in the back
anyway.
Larry nodded silently, pulling his seat back up into a
sitting position. Bono sighed, turning the radio on and
fiddling with the dials as Larry looked out the window,
losing himself in thought. Bono smacked the radio with
frustration and shut it off.
Cant get any stations in with the
storm
Bono?
What?
Do you think Ann would ever cheat on
me?
Bono stared at him, Do you think she is?
I dont know. I
dont
know.
Larry
If she is, I dont know what Im going to
do.
Larry
Her love was just something I could depend on and
it feels like lately its just been
gone.
Larry, if she cheats on you, shes a
moron, Bono replied, brushing his wet hair off his
forehead.
Why do you say that?
Coz, look at you! Good looking, famous and
incredibly talented rock star?
Cmon
theres women in this world that
would kill for you
men too, Bono added with a
joking grin and Larry shook his head, Very
funny
yeah, but thats the thing. I knew Ann
liked me for me coz she was with me before U2 took off.
Id never be able to be sure whether that person was
in it for my rock star side or for me
Then find someone youve known all
along, Bono shrugged then softened at the hurt look
on Larrys face, Sorry
I know you
cant just throw Ann away or anything
talk to
her.
Ive tried
she just
doesnt
want to talk about it, Larry pursed his lips,
If this keeps up, I dont think I can
stay with her.
Well, just give her time
maybe shes
going through a rough spot now
me and Ali have had
rough spots, you know
like NOW for instance.
What do you mean?
Im home too much now, she gets aggravated by
me. Im always in the way it seems
Im
another mess for her to tidy up. It gets irritating for
me as well and weve been snapping at each other a
lot lately.
Im sorry, Bono
were both having
rough times in love I guess. Most would think we have it
made, huh? Being supposedly rich and all, Larry
said sarcastically.
Right, rich after Zoo TV! Thats a good
one, Bono laughed.
Larry sighed, This is gonna be a long
night
Larry shifted uncomfortably as lightening burst through
the air again and Bono took a sip from Larrys water
bottle. The radio clock read 1:23 AM.
Wont it ever STOP? Larry frowned at the
rain.
Bono shrugged, trying to move his sleeping foot,
Larry, this front part is way too
crowded
Yeah, I know, Larry sighed, Why
dont you go in the back?
Come with me, we can talk.
Your idea of talk is to bug me about Ann.
I wont unless you bring it up, Bono
promised.
Larry made a face, Alright, but you first.
Theres no monsters back there, Larry.
No, but I dont trust you not to push me while
Im climbing back there.
Bono rolled his eyes and squirmed out of his seat,
climbing through the gap between their seats to the back
of the car. Larry grinned, Hey Bono
your pants
arent dry all the way.
I know
most of me isnt dry.
It looks like you pissed in them.
Bono sat down on the back seat and stared at him, I
thought you were the mature one.
Nope, Larry muttered, climbing over next to
him and stretching out his legs, Oh, this is much
better
really quite nice. They should have taken
some of the room back here and put it up there.
Agreed, Bono nodded, kicking off his shoes.
Oh, now youre gonna whip those out on
me? Larry moaned with a smile and Bono rolled his
eyes, Like yours are a treat
those big ole
things.
Yeah, but you know what they say about big
feet.
Yeah, Bono smirked, Big shoes.
Larry shrugged, That too.
So is it true?
Is what true?
Duh
the big feet equals big
Oh! Well, I guess I cant really tell
I
havent seen anyone but my own in a while
I
mean, besides Adams obviously, Larry replied,
settling himself in a slouching position.
Bono nodded slowly, then laughed, looking down at his
feet, I have small feet.
Larry glanced at him and they cracked up in hysterical
laughter. Larry finally regained his composure and
grinned, You tell me then
is it true?
Ahhh
I plead the fifth.
The what?
American term. Means I aint
tellin.
Ah, cmon
its just me!
Like you said, I havent seen enough of them
to know if mine is
well, Adams is just
RIDICULOUS
Larry grinned, Theres my answer.
No, no! I mean, cmon Larry! Adams is
almost
well; Im not that bad off I guess. Ask
Ali when we see her.
Larry smiled at Bono and Bono scowled at him, Oh,
just shuddup.
I didnt say a word!
I know what youre thinking.
Alright, alright
so you and Ali gonna be
okay?
No fair, now YOURE prodding
thats
my job.
Hey, Im here for you too. I know you talk to
Edge a lot more about
life than you do with me, but
I know about life to, Larry mumbled, suddenly
serious.
I know you do
well, me and
Ali
were gonna be fine, I think. Weve
made it through worse than this
I hope.
Larry frowned,
You dont sound so
sure.
I know I dont, but its worked out in
the past
it has to now, right?
Larry paused,
I wouldnt know.
You and Annll be okay
No, I dont think we will.
Oh
do you
wanna talk about it?
BONO-
You started it!
Larry stared at Bono a tense moment. Bono thought he was
going to close himself off at that moment like he always
did
Bono expected it. To his surprise, Larry looked
at him pleadingly, his blue eyes suddenly watery.
Im losing her. I dont know what I
did
I
Ive been like I always have
I
cant live like this, Bono, I just
CANT
shes
Larry stopped
himself and Bono grimaced, Larry
finish that
thought please
dont close me out. You need
someone to talk to and, unfortunately for you, Im
the only one here.
Shes
HURTING me, Larry spat out as
if it was a horrible obscenity.
In all their years of friendship, Bono had never heard or
seen Larry so lost and desperate. He needed love,
companionship. Ann wasnt giving him it and he
didnt understand why. Bono filled with a rage.
Hed always liked Ann, but now
he was furious
that shed put his best friend through so much pain.
Larry never deserved this. Hed been loyal and so
faithful to her. Out on the road
even though they
were never technically married, Bono knew he
couldnt count on FIFTY peoples hands the
times Larry had turned down beautiful womens
advances, saying he had a girlfriend. How could she throw
him around like this? She didnt see like Bono did
how Larry would miss her sometimes out on the road. She
had no RIGHT to treat his friend like this.
Larry, this is fucked. Make her talk about it or
get her out of your life
you cant let her do
this to you.
Its not that easy
I still care about
her
love her, Larry sighed, turning away from
Bono and looking out the window at the rain, She
just wont LISTEN! Larry shouted, hitting the
window with his fist. The glass shook and Bono opened his
mouth, though nothing came out.
Do you know I havent heard the phrase I
love you in over five months? FIVE months,
Bono
Something I used to hear everyday from her, now
I never hear! Larry said angrily, staring at the
seat in front of him, Shes
I dont
know, acted like I dont exist or something! When I
call shes either on her way out the door or too
tired to talk for too long. And when she spent that week
in New York with me all we DID was argue and bicker. Row
after row, that whole week!
Larry, you have to accept
maybe its
over.
I know
God, FIVE fucking MONTHS
They fell silent again, Bono biting his lip and Larry
squeezing his eyes shut, trying to fight the tears he
felt coming on. He felt like his whole world was
falling
he didnt remember what it was like
without Ann
shed just always been there. He
was scared to be without her. Thats why hed
gone to New York in the first place. To make sure he
COULD still make it without her at his side. He knew he
could, but it was the loneliest time of his life when he
did. He hated it. Bono didnt understand; he was
happily married. Adam didnt understand coz
hed never been in a long-term relationship. Edge
was too happy with Morleigh to notice that Larry was
unhappy.
Larry was brought out of his thoughts by Bonos hand
on his shoulders, his sad eyes connecting with
Larrys.
I know that you think I cant understand,
but
Im here for you, no matter what.
That made Larry want to cry even more,
Thanks, he croaked.
Bono sighed, not moving his hand from Larrys
shoulder. He didnt know what to do. Larry looked so
scared, upset
Bono felt pretty much the same, for
Larry and for himself. His relationship with Ali was
pretty rocky lately as well
he understood where
Larry was coming from. But he just wanted Larry to feel
better, to be happy again. He realized with a slight
unpleasantness that he hadnt noticed how little
Larry had been smiling the past two years
tonight
had been the first night in a while Larry had laughed
freely
Bono missed that geeky, adorable laugh.
Wait, adorable? Geeky, yeah, but
where had he gotten
adorable from?
Bono
W-what?
You can, uhm
move your hand now, if you
want.
Oh, sorry, Bono snatched his hand away,
I just
Im, uh
Dont worry about me
Ill probably
be okay
I hope.
I always worry about you, Larry, you know
that.
Yeah, and
Bono, youve been great for me,
all these years. Youre my best friend and
probably
one of the most important people in my
life.
Bono was taken aback. Larry didnt throw around
sentiments that often and was usually pretty strict about
them when he did. He didnt go out and say,
hey, you mean a lot to me unless he really,
really meant it. The most important person in
Larrys life was a Nobel Peace Prize in Bonos
eyes. Was Larry was finally letting him in?
Theres a lot of stuff I never told you,
Larry went on, That I havent told a lot of
people
but
I mean, youve done a lot for
me and I just wanted to you to know that I noticed and I
appreciate it. I really do only have about two handfuls
of friends, and I did that on purpose
but your place
as my friend was never in question. Sometimes it seems
like
Larry paused, almost as if to stop, but
hed already said more than he intended to. Might as
well tell Bono the whole truth, Sometimes, I feel
like youre the only person who understands me. I
know we had no clue during Achtung Baby,
but
youve always known my FEELINGS. You know
when Im happy, mad, frustrated, confused
even
if you dont know what I WANT, you know what I
FEEL
I dont think anyone else could ever be
like that for me, Larry tried to swallow back the
tears, unaware that one had already trailed down his
face, And
God, in times like these,
youre all Ive got. The only one who CARES and
is totally selfless and is willing to put me before them
for two seconds and
youre just THERE. I
dont know anyone more loy-
Bono had no clue what had made him do it. Maybe it was
Larrys heartfelt confession. Maybe it was trying to
make Larry feel better
maybe it was trying to make
himself feel better. But he did it. He leaned forward and
pressed his lips against Larrys. Larry let out a
startled moan, but didnt pull away from the kiss.
In all his life
never had he needed something like
this so badly. SOMEONE like this.
Larry had never really stopped to think of Bono in any
other way but a friend and he simply didnt have it
in him to wonder now. It felt good and he needed someone,
anyone, to love him in that different way. Someone who
wouldnt hurt or use or ignore him
he knew Bono
would never do any of those things. Bono had always been
the closest Larry had found to a Soulmate
someone
who didnt need explanations, someone who just KNEW.
Once again, Bono just KNEW what Larry needed. Without
even thinking twice about it, Larry pulled Bono closer.
Bono slid over to him, still locked in their passionate
kiss. Larry could feel Bonos still wet hair on his
cheek, the coldness of Bonos water logged shirt
against his arms. Bono slid his arms around Larrys
waist, pushing him down on the seat. Bono had no idea
what he was doing. He was moving on instinct and even if
it wasnt the right thing to do and even if it
didnt help either of them in anyway, it felt right.
At least there was that.
I cant believe Im doing this,
Bono mumbled, breaking their kiss.
Me either, Larry said breathlessly.
Their eyes met and Bono frowned, I have no clue
what were doing.
I know, but
Larry lowered his eyes. He
couldnt explain
maybe Bono DIDNT always
know.
Bono smiled slightly, sitting up, Youre cute
when youre scared.
Larry stared down at the wet shirt clinging to
Bonos chest and grinned,
And
youre cute when youre wet.
Bono nodded with a knowing look, running a hand through
his slick hair, Im soaked through
still.
Everywhere?
Pretty much
Bonos words trailed
off and he looked at Larry, a glint in his eye,
Yeah, everywhere.
Larry grabbed his arm and yanked him back into another
kiss. Frustration, anger, sadness,
depression
everything Larry had felt in the last two
years he put into that kiss. Anyway to show Bono some of
what he felt, what hed really been going through.
But over all the emotions, to show Bono he really needed
someone now.
Larry slid down on the seat, Bono laying gently on top of
him. Larry pulled away from the kiss, not feeling
suffocated, but more covered in a warm
blanket
someone did care about him. It felt
wonderful. Bono smiled at him, a loving smile, and
brushed a strand of Larrys hair off his forehead,
kissing him again, his hands sliding under Larrys
shirt. A chill went through Larry at the feel of
Bonos hands - God, even when he was soaking wet
with cold water he felt warm to Larry - against his skin.
Bono
What? Bono murmured into Larrys neck.
Are we going to regret this?
Did you tell me the truth earlier about me being
one of the most important people in your life?
Of course.
And do you know how much you mean to me?
I think.
Then we wont regret it, okay?
Larry nodded silently, finally giving into the feeling
wholly, no longer holding back. Bono helped Larry pull
his shirt off, struggling a bit with the confines of the
car space. He was never going to forget this night, that
was for sure
I took your advice
What advice? Bono asked.
You said to find someone Id known all
along.
Bono smirked, kissing Larry along his collarbone,
Larry?
Yeah? Larry said in a cracked voice, his
fingers pressing tightly against the back of Bonos
neck.
Bono looked at Larry, the sadness there now more of a
dull sorrow and tender loyalty, No matter what
happens with you and Ann
Bono, please
I dont want to think about
her now
not now.
I know, I just
no matter what, I want you to
know and to hear this.
Hear what?
Five months is too long and it will never
happen again. I guarantee that.
Oh
Bono, its been so long
itd
seem foreign now.
From Ann maybe
Ive never told you that
before.
Larry smiled weakly, running a hand through Bonos
hair, and Bono brushed his lips across Larrys.
I love you
does that sound bad? Im
telling the truth
I would never lie about that. I
love you so much
It sounds
Larry stopped and sighed.
Yeah?
Larry smiled, It sounds like something I could get
used to hearing from you.
Bono grinned and then paused,
Hey, the rain
stopped
we can go walk for help now.
Larry shook his head, slowly pulling Bono back down into
another kiss.
Not tonight
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